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Perfection construct – Day 697

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to be a perfect partner
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to resist opening up to questions of my partner about what’s going on inside of me because it will reveal imperfect points in myself
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to resist speaking self-forgivenes in her presence because I’ll reveal my imperfection
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to try and be perfect as a way to be an interesting and acceptable partner
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be very angry that I cannot uphold my presentation and self-experience of being a perfect partner
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to build this construct instead of living intimacy in communication as the basis
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear that the imperfection that I keep away will accumulate to such an extent that I’ll be overwhelmed by it and can no longer function as a partner
I live intimacy in communication instead of this construct
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed in myself for trying to live this construct
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to prevent my partner from asking questions about myself because it will only reveal my imperfection and she’ll regret that she chose me or even asked
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to prevent my partner from asking questions about myself because it may cause harm to the status quo of our relationship


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Fear of harming others – Day 696

perfectionI forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have this undercurrent of fear of harming another/others when I would be in a position of importance in their lives
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to therefor rather be unimportant to others
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to cause tension in my body from this fear
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to therefor rather do nothing of importance whatsoever
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to unconsciously accumulate the urge to do the opposite, to do something of importance all the time
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to distant myself from people who do important things and to feel comfortable with people who do nothing special
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to rather live in my comfort zone of doing nothing specifically important than taking on an important task out of fear of doing harm to others/another/myself
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to therefor don’t want others to play an important role in my life because i don’t want to bring them in a position where they, like me would be able to cause harm.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a person not to be taken too seriously
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to feel I don’t matter much
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed in myself
I redefine comfort as in doing nothing of importance into being comfortable with myself and my body here while being self-directive