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Perfection construct – Day 697

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I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to be a perfect partner
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to resist opening up to questions of my partner about what’s going on inside of me because it will reveal imperfect points in myself
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to resist speaking self-forgivenes in her presence because I’ll reveal my imperfection
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to try and be perfect as a way to be an interesting and acceptable partner
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be very angry that I cannot uphold my presentation and self-experience of being a perfect partner
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to build this construct instead of living intimacy in communication as the basis
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear that the imperfection that I keep away will accumulate to such an extent that I’ll be overwhelmed by it and can no longer function as a partner
I live intimacy in communication instead of this construct
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed in myself for trying to live this construct
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to prevent my partner from asking questions about myself because it will only reveal my imperfection and she’ll regret that she chose me or even asked
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to prevent my partner from asking questions about myself because it may cause harm to the status quo of our relationship
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Auteur: martijndegraaf1001

I am currently in the process of re-creating myself from a selfish being into a participant of a group of individuals that works for what's best for life on Earth, which is what's best for all of us, because without life we have no existence. Desteni is the name of the expanding group. I am writing my Journey to Life blogs to deconstruct the patterns based on fear that I exist as and to share this, so anyone can see the process I am walking.

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